This is not an ode.

[aruan]

My father makes me want to...

-get piercings in places I can't flash to security when they set off metal detectors
-shave off all my hair, get tattoos in all possible visible places, and still land a six-figure job
-take up parachuted free diving off of buildings for fun
-drive my car too fast around icy mountain curves
-heedlessly fuck very random boys in a myriad public places
-scream louder than any human should be capable in a place known for its quietude
-become a lesbian, adopt a child, and prove that I could still live happily ever after
-take up the cause of anarchy and perhaps a firearm and while there, maybe make a new hobby of Russian Roulette

Do anything it takes to dissipate the tight coil of blind rage and utter incredulity his mere presence causes. The things he says make sense in their own way, but the way he goes about saying them is so blood-boilingly infuriating you can't help but want to run in just the opposite direction, even if that means off a cliff.

*makes hot chocolate with lots of marshmallows and a Valium*

Comments

[adelate]

[pets] Y'sit, I can get you the hot chocolate - sounds like you really need it.

[gjstruthseeker.livejournal.com]

My father is just an infuriating, small-minded, self-righteous man who likes to lecture, even now that I'm 21 and way past the point of parenting. I can feel my will to live leeching out of me with every word he says. Five hours last night probably cost me a week of my life in the long run just from the hike in my blood pressure alone.

*deep breath* I'm done, promise.

And thanks for the hot chocolate. *hugs*

[timberho.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

[gjstruthseeker.livejournal.com]

Did you ever see Fight Club? He makes me want to destroy something beautiful just by opening his mouth. It'd be remarkable if it didn't leave me completely irrational.

*gratefully accepts*

[timberho.livejournal.com]

I've been there before. I just hate that you had to face it on Thanksgiving.

hang in there.

[giddyupnow.livejournal.com]

*snuz*

Family is really irksome, yeah. But really not worth getting riled over because sadly, they're the least likely to change. Which is why it is good you won't be with there in a few days, I suppose!

*prepares lots of hot chocolate*

[gjstruthseeker.livejournal.com]

You're gonna be you and within hugging distance in five days' time (eee!) and that's more than reason enough to not do anything to jeopardize things. I shall keep uncharitable thoughts to a minimum.

Thanks for the cocoa. *hugs*

[http://users.livejournal.com/_dragon_/]

::huggles you tight::

[gjstruthseeker.livejournal.com]

Thanks, hon. I do appreciate it. And you brought JC! :) Cheers me right up, the boy does.

[walkingshadow.livejournal.com]

Man, this hour-away thing? Totally not going to work.

::hugs you from a distance and from two days ago, but very, very hard::

One day I will steal and burn your father's copy of How To Make Your Daughter Want To Heedlessly Fuck Random Boys In Myriad Public Places In Just Ten Easy Steps!. Until that day, hugs in person as soon as you get back into town.

[gjstruthseeker.livejournal.com]

I must've missed you by five minutes - your lights were still on when I was lugging my suitcase to Sledd. I thought about shouting up, but I was carrying a lot of stuff and I just wanted to have the trip done.

And yes, this hour distance thing will not do at all, even outside crazy father figure-induced issues. Hey, at least the ones I live with seem happy, and even on their bad days they're infinitely more level-headed. I guess it comes down to them loving me for me, whereas my father makes a point of my flaws but decides he loves me anyway. And you know, he's a crackpot pseudo-philosopher who thinks he knows the first thing about parenting because he fathered two children.

Oh! Give me a call when you get out of your morning classes. I've got a survey with your name on it.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_dragon_/]

Glad I could help, darlin' ^_^.