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aruanBeyond Good and Evil by Nietzsche, interesting discussion on how one gets others to trust them. I said by proving oneself trustworthy. They did the equivalent of patting my head and said that, in fact, the answer was secret option three, that one shouldn't make as huge an investment as trust in a being proven to operate on self-indulgent principles first and foremost.
*shrug* Then again, I read the whole piece thinking that there was nothing wrong with those unnaturally talented, (artists, writers, etc.) and they rightly should be raised up by others who are willing to "enslave" themselves on their behalf. And then Ehnes mentioned the part about this stuff being Hitler's bedtime reading. I'm such a stinking idealist.
Anyhow. Ehnes and I talked for a good forty-five minutes afterward. About being satisfied with our lives, despite how unconventional they might be. Despite the disapproval of others. He seemed genuinely happy to see me, which was really cool.
Then he said something really interesting between our bimonthly gripe regarding one-night stands getting fuzzy on the terms of that sort of deal the next morning. He mentioned that as good as life was for him, with all the things in it he just doesn't have the proper amount of time to devote to maintaining a relationship with someone. And it's true, having another person that in your life is not only time-consuming but effortful, and it's not like you can ask them to work around and within your schedule exclusively. Like, can I see you this Saturday, maybe next Wednesday evening, and then whenever I feel like giving you a last-minute phone call when the mood so strikes me? That's not being in a relationship. And it sucks that it doesn't work like that, but dammit, you've got a life and incorporating another person into it is a hugely encompassing commitment-sacrifice. Meeting people is mostly frustrating and awkward, and even if it clicks there's a whole song-and-dance getting to know you phase, other things, getting past stupid societal conditioning, yada yada yada. But if it could be a schedule thing, you know, where it didn't take over your life, that might be easier. But it's the one thing in life that doesn't.work.like.that. Sigh. Yeah, if I wanted to be in one I'd make the effort, lalala, I'm moving along.
While we were walking to the parking lot, I gave him an open invitation to make the "Jon's usually ten minutes early to my class but you two were exactly three minutes late" joke, which he'd had all period to think about. He declined.
We might be growing up.
*shrug* Then again, I read the whole piece thinking that there was nothing wrong with those unnaturally talented, (artists, writers, etc.) and they rightly should be raised up by others who are willing to "enslave" themselves on their behalf. And then Ehnes mentioned the part about this stuff being Hitler's bedtime reading. I'm such a stinking idealist.
Anyhow. Ehnes and I talked for a good forty-five minutes afterward. About being satisfied with our lives, despite how unconventional they might be. Despite the disapproval of others. He seemed genuinely happy to see me, which was really cool.
Then he said something really interesting between our bimonthly gripe regarding one-night stands getting fuzzy on the terms of that sort of deal the next morning. He mentioned that as good as life was for him, with all the things in it he just doesn't have the proper amount of time to devote to maintaining a relationship with someone. And it's true, having another person that in your life is not only time-consuming but effortful, and it's not like you can ask them to work around and within your schedule exclusively. Like, can I see you this Saturday, maybe next Wednesday evening, and then whenever I feel like giving you a last-minute phone call when the mood so strikes me? That's not being in a relationship. And it sucks that it doesn't work like that, but dammit, you've got a life and incorporating another person into it is a hugely encompassing commitment-sacrifice. Meeting people is mostly frustrating and awkward, and even if it clicks there's a whole song-and-dance getting to know you phase, other things, getting past stupid societal conditioning, yada yada yada. But if it could be a schedule thing, you know, where it didn't take over your life, that might be easier. But it's the one thing in life that doesn't.work.like.that. Sigh. Yeah, if I wanted to be in one I'd make the effort, lalala, I'm moving along.
While we were walking to the parking lot, I gave him an open invitation to make the "Jon's usually ten minutes early to my class but you two were exactly three minutes late" joke, which he'd had all period to think about. He declined.
We might be growing up.
