i wanna be at home

[aruan]

i want to be in a place i know. on that heinous yet incredibly soft sofa in the living room. within arm's reach of my mother who knows even in her sleep when we're sick or need her and comes with nothing but tea and love to comfort intangible symptoms. i want to be warm and unpressured and accepted and to just go on without pretense. i want to sleep and go to a place not rife with fear and war but happiness and quiet. i want to stop fighting for what i should be able to grasp all on my own.
it's getting light outside.
on another note, the in-house channel is playing A.I. later today while TBS has Home Alone tonight. someone up there still smiles, anyway.