maybe -this- is where my superhero dreams come from

[aruan]

and why it is that it's only ever my mom and brother that i'm rescuing.

the other side being that the beast is so massive or the evil so pervasive that no matter what superpowers i'm endowed with, i am still only myself against it, and obviously outmatched. not that i've ever finished one of these epic battles. but if there's a chance i can fight and make a difference, what kind of person would it make me to walk away?

i hate this. i hate not knowing if there's anything i can do, i hate that one of the people i love the most is suffering and i can't help them, i hate that there's no possible light at the end of the tunnel, and i hate that we're all fucked whether we move or stay our ground.